MY CELEB BESTIE.....

This is one of my closest writings, just thought to share it..... I hope you all enjoy it!!
25th of October 2011 at 12:13pm........ Am back to writing because it's just a way of expressing my true feelings.....
Yesterday i decided to take a break from all this rumcus happening at my cousins house and go chill with this my new bestie. it was just a coincident that i needed a break from the house and i got an I.V. to come visit, i had 2nd thoughts even had 3rd and 4th thoughts about it but i decided to go reason unknown.....
I am glad i left because it was a new air entirely even though my cousin couldn't really understand why i decided to go stay with a stranger for a while but my little cousin did any ways. Back to my present location....at my bestie's house trying break free from the shocking air at my cousins
About my so called bestie *smiles*, he's cool, nice, naughty, makes great and mad beats, can really be mischievous at times and always tries to be sweet..... lol.
Is it not crazy when your bestie is heart broken (an opposite sex) and you are single and all??? am trying to help him through the heartbreak but am guessing am going to end up been a rebound in a way. He thinks he likes me, so he says and want to impress me to like him which i think he's just trying to make an effort, the most craziest is been in the same bed with him............. jezzzzz, me can keep my cool but it's kind of hard for him but really i cant blame him as well because to almost every guy have met one thing they keep calling me is the word 'SEXY'. am kind of getting tired of it because to me it's just like am a sex symbol and they possibly cant see past that.
One of the reasons why am careful and choosy, not that i don't like been called SEXY, because it's really flattering i must say and makes me blush but who wouldn't blush at the word SEXY??? lolz. Am use to it now though!! *smile* I like been me but sometimes it'd tiring and really i cant b anybody else because am me and am better at been me!!!!
About/back to my bestie i like him as a bestie, anything more i don't know for now because really have got a lot in my head and it's just best been my bestie and that's the only way to sustain a stable relationship with me. My heart is still heavy from all this mix feelings around me, i cant even think straight any more. It's like two years of been single and everything just keep getting complicated.
An attraction that wont turn into, i really meant a distraction that wont turn into an attraction. just to reconfirm by former emotional position, am still crushing on my crush but like i said last night it's taking so much of my energy and it's draining me so am just going to stop when i cant take it any more regardless of what my emotional status may be....... Time heals, with time i should be fine....... No more heartbreaks no matter how little it may be.....
Has for my bestie we still in talks and he still wants me but i don't think i would b able to handle the fame that comes with it and the pain of what the fame might cost!!!! (:
Comments
The fact that ur called "SEXY" doesn't always have to mean that the guy regards u as a 'sex symbol'.
Maybe, he's just appreciating u for what u are.
A broken hearted guy and a single chick on the same bed, this is not AfricaMagic. #DontDull
Enigma106
..............T-soul